DARLING.. I MIGHT SLOWLY DIVE AWAY..

How I wish you could read beneath my smiles..
and know how I use them to paint my pained expressions.



How I wish you could hear beyond my laughter..
And hear my heart cry and weep in the storm of endless hurting emotions.





How I wish you could feel beyond my smooth heart beats..
And discover some scars unrecoverable, some wounds as green..as fresh.




How I wish you could peep deep within my eyes..
And see a drop of venom spreading in my pure ocean of love.





How I wish you could feel under my lively skin..
And sense my soul dying quietly...shhh.. all in silence.






How I wish you could understand how it hurts..
And I just keep on wishing, and things seem to change..but nothing actually changes..
All what you see is not me living my life..
Its all that I am only trying..
But deep within..slowly and harshly..
Darling I am dying.