A HEART ACHE

First time in my life I wished you would have lied to me..

First time in my life my mirror questioned my pride..

First time in my life I wished I could end my life..

First time in my life I picked up a knife..

I wished it never happened..

I wished my heart was still alive..

But sadly all my wishes are in vain..

Till I breathe, I will have to bear this pain..

I know to love you still is insane

But sadly I am a heart and not a brain.

 

EK IJAAZAT DE DO BASS..

तुम्हारी एक बेवफाई हम पे उधार थी..
आज उसे चुकाने कि इजाज़त दे दो.

एक रोज़ हमारा दिल किसी से छीन कर तुमको दे दिया था..
आज इसे उसको लौटाने कि इजाज़त दे दो.

उसके जाने के बाद ये जाना कि उसकी साँसों पर ही जी रहे थे हम..
आज चैन से मर जाने कि इजाज़त दे दो.

मन अपनी मरियादा छोड़ कर आज फिर उसके प्यार के सागर कि ओर चला है
आज डूब जाने कि इजाज़त दे दो

उजालों में लिपटा वो राह देखता होगा हमारी
हमें भी उस पार जाने कि इजाज़त दे दो

ALONE

All these materialistic pleasures..
I understand their futility now..
Nothing in this world is that we own..
And we are owned by someone, who is still not known...
We say we walk together..
But the reality is, all of us are on our own..
the truth is,
we had walked in alone, and we shall walk out alone....

THE FREE HEART

Full of colors..
He was a free heart.
He had stolen the rainbow..
It was scattered in his every part
He lived to spread colors..
All colors, from bright to dark..
NO I won't cry any more..
all the colors have flown out,
Now, that he has fallen apart..
I gather them all..
Smile and say..
"he had stolen the rainbow..
indeed, He was a free Heart!"

HAM KYUN NAHI SAMJHE

हवाओं ने हमारा आँचल झाग्झोरा था, जुल्फें बिखेरी थीं, रोती सी आवाज़ में..
हमसे कुछ बोला था
हम क्यूँ नहीं समझे..कि क्या उनको कहना था

बिन मौसम बादल भी आए थे, गरजे थे हमपे, ओले भी बरसाए थे..
थर्राए थे, भरमाये थे
हम क्यूँ नहीं समझे..कि वो रोते रोते हमारी गली में क्यूँ आए थे

सूरज भी हद से ज़्यादा उबला था, जलाया था हमको, बुझाया था हमको..
बेचैन कर के छोड़ा था
हम क्यूँ नहीं समझे..कि उसने किस ओर हमको मोड़ा था

आधी रात कोयल भी आई थी, चीखी थी चिल्लाई थी, हमारे दिल को घबराई थी
रात भर चौंकायी थी
हम क्यूँ नहीं समझे..कि अपनी दर्द भरी भाषा में वो क्या हमको बतलाने आई थी

इन सब ने बतलाया था, हमारी ज़िन्दगी के खो जाने का संदेस सुनाया था,
तुम हमें छोड़ गए हो ये समझाया था
हम क्यूँ नहीं समझे..कि जीते-जी हमने अपनी जान को ही गवाया था

YOU ARE NOT GONE

Once you held me in your attractive charm
Once you held me in your protective arms
That was the time of surrender
That was the time of magical love
I met my prince in you
You saw your angel' in me
We flew together..together all the way
So what if we were always far away
The distance couldn't touch our togetherness

"Ah! look at the strange couple"..all used to say!
And now they say that you are gone
And they want me believe this..
Silly are they..cuz they don't know..
that I had stolen..some pieces of you..
Still have them throbbing in my heart.

A joy of your laughter, when I cracked some silly jokes
A pang of your pain, when you saw me in tears
A tickle of your smile, when I used to shy away
A torment of your sorrow, when we had our first fight
A tenderness of your scoldings, when I didn't have my dinner properly
A regret of your complaints, when I missed your calls
An amusement of your jealousy, when you heard some male voice on the line
A refuge of your attitude, when that poor man had dared to look at me in a wrong way
A drop of your tear..the only one in your life you shed before me..when we bid each other the last goodbye..

Just a few I have listed of the vast sky of memoirs I have of you..
floating in each and every corner of my heart
You live my darling..and you will always be alive..Till This heart beats..You can't die
I don't believe them..I won't believe them..And you know that I never did
I always knew you better..I will always know you better..you will still grow like you did..
I have you in me..why do I need to search outside..
You are within me..Alive..And will always be.

WHEN LOVE DEPARTS

You are someone whom I love
He is someone who loves me

You are someone who makes me happy
He is someone who wants me to be happy

You are someone who makes me cry

He is someone who cries when I am in tears

You are someone for whom I am just a part of his vast world
He is someone to whom I mean the world

You are someone who barely has a moment to spend with me
He is someone who wants to be with me each and every moment

You are someone who starts getting suffocated just in two days of togetherness
He is someone who can't be happy if I go away from him even for a day

You are someone who can hang up the phone and just be happy leaving me crying
He is someone who would not let me be alone when I am crying, even when I beg for that.

You are someone who wants me to say what you like, you want, you think, you say.
He is someone whose only interest in life is to know what I feel, I think, I want and I do.

You are someone for whom I am just the another one
He is someone for whom I am his only love

You are someone with whom I crave to be with when I need the most, but can't get hold of.
He is someone who is by my side whenever I need

You are someone for whom I am no where on the priority list
He is someone for whom I am the most important thing in this world

You are someone who never cared to heal the pain which you gave
He is someone keeps making efforts to heal up those wounds

You are someone who couldn't stand by me when his x insulted me
He is someone who wouldn't hesitate to knock her head off, if he would know

You are someone who has lead his such a way that it will cause pain to my heart every moment
He is someone who puts in all his heart in making my life beautiful

You are someone whom I chose for my HEART,its true, but,
He is someone whom I choose for my LIFE.














  

TURNING STONE ONCE AGAIN

LETTING MY SANITY CRUSH ALL MY DREAMS..


LETTING MY EYES BE OPEN YET BLINDED..


LETTING MY TEARS DIE IN THE LAP OF MY LASHES..


LETTING ALL MY EMOTIONS FLY FROM THE CAGE OF ATTACHMENTS..


REBUILDING MY HEART..UNBREAKABLY STRONG..


TURNING STONE ONCE AGAIN.

KUCHH BUJHTE RANG

कभी अरमानों के खूबसूरत रंगों से एक तसवीर बनाई थी
..तुम्हारे साथ की...
वक़्त के झरने में वो रंग धुल के बह गए तो जाना..
कि वो रंग तो कच्चे थे..
लेकिन आज जब उस तसवीर को गौर से देखा..
तो कुछ कुछ रंग आज भी उतने हि गहरे दिखे..
फर्क सिर्फ इतना था कि पहले वो ज़िन्दगी कि खूबसूरती का हिस्सा लगते थे..
आज वो ज़िन्दगी पर लगे चन्द अनचाहे दाग से ज़्यादा..
..और कुछ नहीं..
ना वो तसवीर मिट हि सकी ना बच हि सकी..
बस कुछ निशान बाक़ी रह गए.