Surrender

Today,
It's not sorrow,
Neither is it pain,
It's just a try, not to miss you
ever again!

Requesting memories to blend,
Pleading echos to fade
All set to withdraw my soul
from a role that I so sincerely played

And I'll never be adored
the way I was,
I know it's my loss
but life won the toss,
So I gift this one to the destiny
Cuz the next one is promised to you and me!

I Would Tell You Daddy, I Would Tell You I Swear!

World! Your languages have not those words?

What happened to me? What was that curse?

Tell me the name,

What is that pain?

If at all I knew to describe, even a bit of what happened there,

I would tell you Daddy, I would tell you I swear!

No don’t turn away

I can’t stand, please wait

I scream because I am falling

So please don’t hate

I know you can help, I know that you care

I would tell you Daddy, I would tell you I swear!

I can bear all the wounds

I can bear them all alone

I can bear this from all

All whom I have ever known

But you showing me your back, is much more than what I can bear

I would tell you Daddy, I would tell you I swear! 

STRANGLED LoVe

Tall, huge, endless,
wide is the sky
Unless to measure,
with your fingers you try!
Through which, it's just a tiny blue patch.
Deprived of dignity, tightly tied.
You will see it only as much,
as you will decide!

Love knew no boundaries
but we chose to measure
Our unworthy evaluations
made us lose that treasure

Denounced, deceived
always at stake
Heart is a thing
Devised to break!
Again and again,
to talk to you.
Have been walking miles
to walk to you

When arguments end
tell me someday
Did you pretend?
Did I betray?
Or was it just time
to drift away?
Or was it just me
to feel that way?

In your memories, soaring high,
there is this sky, and there is an 'I',
trying to wipe which, each night I cry,
If nothing else, at least a nicer goodbye?

A CONFESSION NOTE!

Music at it's loudest
stuffed into my ears
Encounter with silence
is what my heart fears

Silence is like a cop
on a third degree spree
Conspires for my confessions,
puts me against me!

Many stories untold
What if the long furl unfolds?
Am I just this face?
Or is there much more to be told?

Thirsty for life
I kept asking for more,
In darkest of waters I dived
and Strongest of Norms, I tore..

Words like Careless, carefree,
always so truly defined me
And c'mon,that is what I am
That is what I love to be!

A little bunch of dark secrets,
With magic wings that know..
to fly beyond the boundaries
to go WHEREVER these wanna go!

And now..

Life stands to arrest me in a white veil
to label my identity as 'perfect & pure'
Heavy enough to burden me down,
a little more than my conscience can endure

But they say this is life
and I shall settle down in this lie someday
So OK, here I give in, But please,
Chop down my wings before this, I pray!

THE Volcanic Puke

Hit my head
and make me forget
those memories
that I always say 'I don't regret'

I have walked miles
with loads in my heart
With attitude I say 'I don't care'
each time that burden hits me hard

I hate it, I hated always
those moments, those days
But to hell with my patience
I still stayed, after a soft 'anyways'

It wasn't okay
NO, it wasn't alright
I openly declare today
Oh Yes It WAS a REASON to fight!

That wasn't me
who messed, who was wrong
It was you, you, YOU
All the way long


That lost grace
That lost charm, that laughter
Return it all you thief,
you scoundrel, you monster!

'Tears?? hah! hell no! just the eyes are watering
 some eye infection, No I am NOT crying'
But to forgive you, I give up
Just to let you know, that I am NOT anymore trying..

BEREAVED MOMENTS

In pain, Insane
all over again
One heart that cries
Two eyes that rain

You are, you were
You will be here
In my random smiles
In my aimless tears
What for is then, this misery?
When in my mirror, its your face I see

But when illusion breaks
and craving holds
Nothing remains
Nothing consoles

You took it all
And left me behind
What for I stay?
What's left that's mine?

You were it all
My hero, My guy
No reason at all
For final goodbye
I only get closer
Each time I try
Every heartbeat a burden
Every breath is a sigh
Why did you go?
just tell me why?

THE BREAKUP

You have a perfect package, with a brilliant job

But all I needed,
was a heart to listen
a mind to speak
and lots of time for me to rob!

You say you were to gift me a superb luxury car

But all I needed,was a peaceful journey of nights
and as my gift? everynight
just one shining star!

Diamonds you say you would have gotten me home

But hey! I could never make out the worth of that stone!
All I needed,
was a hand to hold on,
a bond to boast of,
and a quiet carefree street to roam

You got into too much
when little was enough
I wasn't difficult,
But you made me tough!
Here, take back your heart
as I respectfully reject it in furl
I am sorry dude,
But I was never your girl!

GROUNDED

While I see my feet firmly grounded,

Which reckless bit of earth was that? I ponder,

That such snatched its gravity, so as to keep just your skin here

And to set your soul to wander?

If at all I knew

With all my strength, I would have pushed and spun the globe around,

And would have stood there instead of you.



They tell me you are over

I growl that it ain't true

Fighting the world, scared inside

Darling just one clue,

Tell me where are you?


Waves come, touch and go

To touch my soul, I doubt they'll ever know

Time has stopped as the moments flow

To move ahead my footprints yet don't know



Tape of my memory, I repeatedly forward, play, stop & rewind

I took millions of steps to move away,

But after you, it’s all blank behind.

With my skin so abandoned and soul so bounded,

helplessly I see my feet firmly grounded

I so stand here, since you left me so

With this only bliss, with this only woe

That to move ahead my footprints yet don't know

That to move ahead my footprints will never know.