MONSOON BLUES

रोई रोई सी ज़मीं, सूजा सूजा सा आसमान लगता है 

छुपाये हो दिल में जैसे कोई तूफ़ान लगता है 

यूं ही तो नहीं गिरा करती बिजलियाँ धरती के सीने पे 

तड़प कर लिपटने को आया कोई बिछड़ा अरमान लगता है 

 

तुम सो लेना, मैं तुम्हारे बदले जागूँगी  

बरसात की रात है, आखिर ऐसे में कहाँ भागूंगी 

फितरत ही ऐसी है की उम्मीद का दामन छोड़ा ही नहीं जाता ज़ालिम 

दामन में सारे टूटे तारे बटोरे बैठी हूँ कि एक दिन फिर से उन्हें आसमान में टाँकूँगी   

 

THE WANDERING ZONE!

रास्ते भर बेक़रारी, मंज़िलों का इंतज़ार
पा के मंज़िल को लगा कि रास्ते ही ठीक थे

तन्हा जब तक थे अकेलेपन ने ले रखी थी जान
हमसफ़र को पा के जाना, थे जो तन्हा ठीक थे

दोस्त कितने कितने आशिक़, पर वो परवाना कहाँ
पा के परवाने को पाया, गुज़रे आशिक़ ठीक थे !

खामखां के शिक़वे वादे, इश्क़ ज़ालिम नामुराद
हाये उनको खो के जाना, जो भी थे वो ठीक थे

कब से भूले कब के भटके, थे तड़पते ये क़दम
साहिलों पे आके जाना, भूले भटके ठीक थे !

ग़ुमशुदा ग़ुमराह बेबस, जो भी कह लो जो भी हो
हर दफ़े हर बार नाख़ुश हो के ही हम ठीक थे

जिसने भी जब हाल पूछा, कब कहा? "हाँ ठीक हैं"
जब भी पूछा ये कहा,"जी हम तो पहले ठीक थे" !

Surrender

Today,
It's not sorrow,
Neither is it pain,
It's just a try, not to miss you
ever again!

Requesting memories to blend,
Pleading echos to fade
All set to withdraw my soul
from a role that I so sincerely played

And I'll never be adored
the way I was,
I know it's my loss
but life won the toss,
So I gift this one to the destiny
Cuz the next one is promised to you and me!

I Would Tell You Daddy, I Would Tell You I Swear!

World! Your languages have not those words?

What happened to me? What was that curse?

Tell me the name,

What is that pain?

If at all I knew to describe, even a bit of what happened there,

I would tell you Daddy, I would tell you I swear!

No don’t turn away

I can’t stand, please wait

I scream because I am falling

So please don’t hate

I know you can help, I know that you care

I would tell you Daddy, I would tell you I swear!

I can bear all the wounds

I can bear them all alone

I can bear this from all

All whom I have ever known

But you showing me your back, is much more than what I can bear

I would tell you Daddy, I would tell you I swear! 

STRANGLED LoVe

Tall, huge, endless,
wide is the sky
Unless to measure,
with your fingers you try!
Through which, it's just a tiny blue patch.
Deprived of dignity, tightly tied.
You will see it only as much,
as you will decide!

Love knew no boundaries
but we chose to measure
Our unworthy evaluations
made us lose that treasure

Denounced, deceived
always at stake
Heart is a thing
Devised to break!
Again and again,
to talk to you.
Have been walking miles
to walk to you

When arguments end
tell me someday
Did you pretend?
Did I betray?
Or was it just time
to drift away?
Or was it just me
to feel that way?

In your memories, soaring high,
there is this sky, and there is an 'I',
trying to wipe which, each night I cry,
If nothing else, at least a nicer goodbye?

A CONFESSION NOTE!

Music at it's loudest
stuffed into my ears
Encounter with silence
is what my heart fears

Silence is like a cop
on a third degree spree
Conspires for my confessions,
puts me against me!

Many stories untold
What if the long furl unfolds?
Am I just this face?
Or is there much more to be told?

Thirsty for life
I kept asking for more,
In darkest of waters I dived
and Strongest of Norms, I tore..

Words like Careless, carefree,
always so truly defined me
And c'mon,that is what I am
That is what I love to be!

A little bunch of dark secrets,
With magic wings that know..
to fly beyond the boundaries
to go WHEREVER these wanna go!

And now..

Life stands to arrest me in a white veil
to label my identity as 'perfect & pure'
Heavy enough to burden me down,
a little more than my conscience can endure

But they say this is life
and I shall settle down in this lie someday
So OK, here I give in, But please,
Chop down my wings before this, I pray!

THE Volcanic Puke

Hit my head
and make me forget
those memories
that I always say 'I don't regret'

I have walked miles
with loads in my heart
With attitude I say 'I don't care'
each time that burden hits me hard

I hate it, I hated always
those moments, those days
But to hell with my patience
I still stayed, after a soft 'anyways'

It wasn't okay
NO, it wasn't alright
I openly declare today
Oh Yes It WAS a REASON to fight!

That wasn't me
who messed, who was wrong
It was you, you, YOU
All the way long


That lost grace
That lost charm, that laughter
Return it all you thief,
you scoundrel, you monster!

'Tears?? hah! hell no! just the eyes are watering
 some eye infection, No I am NOT crying'
But to forgive you, I give up
Just to let you know, that I am NOT anymore trying..